Thursday, March 10, 2016


Today is my 21st wedding anniversary.

That is a long time. So many things have changed over those many years. Looking back it seems everything changed.

However, the past year or so has been huge changes! For the past year everything in my life seems to have my footing on different ground than what I am used to:

My Mother had a heart attack last spring.
So many things have changed for my parents. Mom has had dementia for a while now but the heart attack and subsequent pneumonia that had hospitalized her for nearly a month drastically altered everything for them. Now Dad is full-time caretaker always at home. He lives, eats, and breathes taking care of Mom's needs which are many. Her heart today seems strong given that she nearly didn't survive last spring. I am so thankful she is still with us! This time with her has made us different people.

As you all now know, my sweet baby girl has gotten married, which means I am no longer homeschooling her.

Weird, I know. Over these last few months I have had a range of emotions from sadness to elation, frustration, and loneliness. Oh, my daughter is not gone but homeschooling isn't a thing that you just do, it's a complete lifestyle. Looking back over the past 14 years at the many things we have done I see the trips to the gardens and library were more than just things to fill time. It's part of who we were. I see the many hours spent doing artwork, reading aloud, having tea and crafts is more than just hobbies. It has been part of us.

Well now that Roman is a year old today and I'm a Bubbie I have new things that are part of who I am.

A few weeks ago he went to the living room curtains to play peekaboo and was very upset that when he yelled "boo" I wasn't on the other side to say boo back. Nearly every morning after he has eaten breakfast he is put onto the floor to play and ends up in my lap or Grandpa's to help us finish our breakfast too. It's part of who we are.

Nowadays Jasmine recommends tv shows to me. We have catch phrases and quotes that are all ours. Miriam comes over for tv or Internet and shares the best pictures from Pinterest with me. All three of us women have a love for music that is very similar. We even all have the same albums on our iPods! It's part of who we are. Most importantly, we talk of YHWH and His love for us. We share things we are learning from scripture and discussions with our husbands. We all make plans for our futures which of course means sabbaths, meals together, birthday celebrations, ways to honor our husbands, etc.... Honestly I think this has made us more who we are than anything else. So here we are, renewed, refreshed, living completely differently than we were a year ago. YHWH has faithfully walked us through every step of the way!